So in the past month that I've been working, people have come to assume many things about my situation.

"She's never going to go back to school."

"Did she not even get into college?"

"What is she doing with her life?"

Okay, so no one has ever directly asked me that last question. Heck, I don't know if they have even thought it. But it is something I ask myself every day, heading to work.

"I could be learning right now. Philosophy, psychology, history, literature, the works!" (No math and science por favor. We don't get along too well.)

 I know I'm doing the financially smart thing. Why should I have to take out loans for community college when some saving up can pay for it just fine? Then I think about how this is setting me back-- It'll be hard for me to get back into the groove of things. I'm loving the no homework, no all-nighters, no stressing over tests and projects...

Though I still am trying to read plenty of books. I loved AP English, and am currently in the midst of rereading Paradise Lost. Hopefully by reading and interpreting such literature, I can at least keep my brain "in shape". Ehhhh.

Stupid recession. Stupid me for not doing better in school and getting plenty of scholarships. And stupid financial aid for telling me I didn't qualify because my parents made "too much". MY DAD'S BEEN UNEMPLOYED FOR OVER A YEAR. We went from $120,000 to just... Oh. Less than half of that. ;____;

Oh well. I guess this year off is really helping me "find myself", even though that wasn't my original intent. As much as I love literature, psychology, and such... I really want to own a bakery. Like a little dessert shop, with awesome delicious cupcakes, regular cakes, pastries, the works. People would fall in love with my desserts and rave about them, and they would be reasonably priced :)

haha I can dream. I still have another few months to figure this stuff out, right? No rush or anything >.<