Thursday, 29 October 2009
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all this work and no school. D;
So in the past month that I've been working, people have come to assume many things about my situation.
"She's never going to go back to school."
"She's taking a year off to 'find herself'.""Did she not even get into college?"
"What is she doing with her life?"
Okay, so no one has ever directly asked me that last question. Heck, I don't know if they have even thought it. But it is something I ask myself every day, heading to work.
"I could be learning right now. Philosophy, psychology, history, literature, the works!" (No math and science por favor. We don't get along too well.)
I know I'm doing the financially smart thing. Why should I have to take out loans for community college when some saving up can pay for it just fine? Then I think about how this is setting me back-- It'll be hard for me to get back into the groove of things. I'm loving the no homework, no all-nighters, no stressing over tests and projects...
Though I still am trying to read plenty of books. I loved AP English, and am currently in the midst of rereading Paradise Lost. Hopefully by reading and interpreting such literature, I can at least keep my brain "in shape". Ehhhh.
Stupid recession. Stupid me for not doing better in school and getting plenty of scholarships. And stupid financial aid for telling me I didn't qualify because my parents made "too much". MY DAD'S BEEN UNEMPLOYED FOR OVER A YEAR. We went from $120,000 to just... Oh. Less than half of that. ;____;
Oh well. I guess this year off is really helping me "find myself", even though that wasn't my original intent. As much as I love literature, psychology, and such... I really want to own a bakery. Like a little dessert shop, with awesome delicious cupcakes, regular cakes, pastries, the works. People would fall in love with my desserts and rave about them, and they would be reasonably priced :)
haha I can dream. I still have another few months to figure this stuff out, right? No rush or anything >.<
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Comments (4)
you have time, yes. just don't stop thinking about it, at least. that way, when you're ready, or when an opportunity presents itself, you'll be able to take advantage of it. no one should ever stop learning, anyway.
Ooh, a bakery would be awesome! Anything involving food would be awesome, haha.
If you're motivated enough, I don't think you'll have any trouble getting back into the swing of things. If you really want to go to school after acquiring the funds, you will be able to do it.
:D Yeah, you have time.
I'm juust making it ... two jobs + just barely maintaining full-time status at my school. Losing sleep (well.. procrastinating a lot, as well), but maintaining sanity, arguably, by keeping in touch with people.
I got... --some--... government help, but the aid still doesn't cover more than about half of what it costs to attend the state college I'm at. No scholarships, as I had less than a 4.0, and "only" a 27 on my ACT ... (yeah, though I was told it was a "good" score ::shrugs::), but with the payment-plan, I'm making it.
Sad/Scary thing is... I don't know what comes next. I can't guarantee that I'll have a job in the career I want to. . .
, but I'll cross that road when I come to it.
Best of luck to you, too.
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